Been good. Been awhile again sorry. but because I can no longer access the Twitter API I can’t Auto Tweet out my posts any more so I’m not assuming anyone who I don’t send this to is reading it (but if you are wass up).
Moving. Man as much as I feel worried about moving but I also feel confident that I’ll be perfectly fine. I’m kind of shocked about how fine I feel about it sometimes. I’ve been thinking about what it’ll be like after I’m gone because someone I worked with for 8 or so years just recently left and its been weird not to see her anymore and to have my mind cope with the fact I might not ever again.
I wonder if people will feel the same about me when I depart. It feels weird to see the same people every day then suddenly their gone. I think I’ll miss seeing more people when I’m gone but most of the people I’d like to keep seeing play D&D with me on Wednesday and the plan is to continue that online after I move so I’m not actively too stressed about it.
If you didn’t know I’m supposed to be moving across the country with one of my friends to live with two of my other friends who already live where we’re going. I wonder how long I’ll be up their or if I’ll want to be back when I am their but I won’t know that until I am up their and I think moving as an adult is an experience everyone should have to learn part of themselves.
I think the thing that’s most sad to me is that once I leave I’ll have no home to come back to after some amount of time. My dad has talked about wanting to move into a one bedroom apartment after I’m gone and its got me thinking that all the places I’ve lived in Texas will have no remains of my presence their or any security their for me to return to.
Just a weird thing to think about but I wonder if the breeze at night will remember how it moved around me as I walk home from work. Or if the sidewalks will remember the beat of my foot steps. Maybe my schools have forgotten my case already. Have they already moved on from me. Maybe now its just my time to take my leave? I don’t know but I often feel like my best times in my life have been from embracing I don’t knows. I guess I’ll see. If four months have passed and I haven’t blogged again things either went really good or really bad lol.
Wish me luck.
Too Much D&D
Wild stuff to say honestly but I’ve been really falling back on some other projects because of the amount of Tabletop I’ve been playing/running recently. lets go through my weekly schedule so I can illustrate my point.
- Sunday: D&D with the TRUCK boys
- Monday: D&D with Work People on some weeks, D&D with LAG people on the other weeks.
- Tuesday: One of Two days I don’t play D&D. Often prep at night though
- Wednesday: DM’ing Heralds of The End.
- Thursday: No D&D
- Friday: Choice of Two games that I’m welcome at.
- Saturday: Playing through Hoard of The Dragon Queen with ex-coworkers.
So what’s been happening is that the moment I get home from work I just get ready for D&D lol. Its a good problem to have that I’m doing too much of something I like but I’ve been neglecting other things in my life recently because of it. So maybe its time to slow down after these games come to their endings lol.
Thinking about things I’ve been neglecting.
Making Promises
I had a lot of things I wanted to accomplish within this year and I’ve been steadily neglecting all of them. so I’m gonna make a list of all the things I want to start working on more seriously and start alarms on my phone to remind me to do those things in my free time.
- Storyboard Chronicles of Ildrim
- Build Ghull maps 2/10 base maps completed
- Work with Dreamscape commission artists and complete the first Dreamscape Webpage
- Make (Things I Like) Video
- Composition Challenges
- Research and conceptualize (Domains of Dread) Video series
- Blog more 4Head
- Mix Competitions and WWise Cert learning
- Smaller things that mean a lot (Text family more, drive more often, meditate, run more often, be more mindful ect…)
I’m going to try to make a video as well about these things and schedule it to release in a number of years to try to see if the presence of that video releasing will motivate me to try harder to be consistent.